Posts Tagged Thoughts
June 9, 2009 at 10:21 pm
· Filed under Life, Thoughts ·Tagged adobe, blog, creative, deviantart, exam, holiday, job, mac, macbook, personal, school, summer, Thoughts
Hello world!
Long time since i have left any signs of my existing here. There has been a lot of things going on in my life, physical and emotional.I am ashamed to say that my Norwegian blog is getting more and more attention but I’m going to try to include you English understanding persons into my life also.
For my creative side, I’m in a very good period. I have spent more time away from school and my creativity flow is now like a free river and not like a hot dessert. You can see some of my latest work and school projects on deviantart.
At the moment my summer holiday have sort of started. I have to stop my school tomorrow so that one of my teacher can look over some papers and tasks that I might have use for IF I have to have an Oral exam next week. If I don’t get selected for the oral exam (only half the class will be), I’m free for the summer!
I haven’t really decided if I am happy or sad that I didn’t get the summer job. I should get a job and earn some money and get some experience, but I have enough trouble as it is with balancing school and life.
For about a week ago I bought my first Macbook, and I absolutely love it. When I get the Adobe programs that I need for school I think the mac can really help me at school, not just so that I can become better, but also so that I can work at home and get done with every thing. There is some differences between a PC and a Mac. buttons and shortcuts, must be the biggest one, but after a short while you got it. another great thing about my new mac is that it has a L button that works! and it’s really good at spelling.
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August 6, 2008 at 5:31 pm
· Filed under Books, Life ·Tagged babies, biography, birth, breast, Cobain, control, deformed, diary, dolls, dream, flipper, girls, imagination, inner, Journals, Kurt, Life, lizards, masturbate, news, personal, pills, sex kittens, story, Thoughts, titty, TV, twister
Taken from Journals[ page 128, it's kinda hard to read his writeing at times]
I am a male. age 23 and Im Lactating. my breasts have never been so sore not even after receiving titty twisters from bully-school mates. They had hair down there long before I stopped playing with dolls. I havent masturbated in months because Ive lost my imagination. I close my eyes and I see my father, little girls, german Shepards & TV news commentators, but no voluptuous, pouty lipped, hated-female, sex kittens, winching inecstasy from the illusory positions Ive conjured up in my mind. No, when I close my eyes I see lizards & flipper babies. the ones who where born deformed because their mothers took bad birth control pills.
Im seriously afraid of to touch myself
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August 4, 2008 at 9:00 pm
· Filed under Books, Thoughts, Uncategorized ·Tagged biography, Books, Courtney Love, Frances Bean Cobain, Heaven, Heavier, Hole, Kurt Cobain, Nirvana, reading, Than, Thoughts
Today, after two months reading I was done reading the biography of Kurt Cobain.
I think it’s best said by a cover of one of Kurt’s notebooks/diary
[This is not a review of the book, only a few simple thoughts]
“If you read, you will judge”
I truly loved and hated this book. I can not put all of my thoughts and feelings down in words. For some reason this book really touched me emotionally. if it weren’t for the fact that I finished reading the book in a public place I think I would have cried.
The book in my opinion will change your view of Kurt, no matter if you are a fan or not. I started reading this book not because I was a fan, I never liked Nirvana before I read this book, but I knew about Kurt Cobain and I was curious about how he lived, how he was thinking and what lead him down the path he went.
Like most people I thought from the start that Courtney Love was the source to his drug abuse that led to his death or that she was the one who killed him. Based on the book I am not sure anymore. She seemed to stay sober longer then him, and have more control then him, even thought they often escaped from this world together by shooting heroine.
It’s clearly to everyone that he was a simple man but yet so complicated, he was so cheerful but also in so much pain.
I think it’s impossible to say this in any way without sounding like a teeny fan of Nirvana, but still during this book I realized that to much of me found it self in Kurt and his thoughts and way of thinking. Things that he wrote in his journal(notebooks) could have been copied from my diary. Parts of my diary that was written long time before I read this book or even had heard about him and that partly freaks me out.
in the end most of my thoughts and questions goes to Frances Bean Cobain
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