Inside My Head

Taken from Journals[ page 128, it's kinda hard to read his writeing at times]

I am a male. age 23 and Im Lactating. my breasts have never been so sore not even after receiving titty twisters from bully-school mates. They had hair down there long before I stopped playing with dolls. I havent masturbated in months because Ive lost my imagination. I close my eyes and I see my father, little girls, german Shepards & TV news commentators, but no voluptuous, pouty lipped, hated-female, sex kittens, winching inecstasy from the illusory positions Ive conjured up in my mind. No, when I close my eyes I see lizards & flipper babies. the ones who where born deformed because their mothers took bad birth control pills.

Im seriously afraid of to touch myself